Monday, June 28, 2010

Cool California


I keep hearing from friends and family in Houston how hot it is. I'm glad I'm here where the high temperature during the day is lower than the low temperature at night in Houston. But the water is cold in the Pacific--about 67 degrees now. It will warm to 70 or above later in the summer.

We had a nice dinner on June 25 with Craig's family and some mutual friends. It would have been our 49th anniversary. We often forgot our anniversaries but I probably won't now. Each day is maybe a little better but then something happens that reminds me of the past. I guess that will never entirely pass--and I don't want it to.


Tonight I will join Craig and the boys at a Padres game. They are doing very well this year. Hope my going won't jinx them.

Last week I took a walk along the lagoon near our condo. There is a heron rookery there but the "babies" are all grown up and about to leave the nest. It is hard to see them but I tried to get a picture.

Monday, June 21, 2010

I'm now in California

Following our recent "tradition", I drove out to Carlsbad, CA last week. I spent a few days in Tucson with our very good friends, Ray and Julie Woosley. I got out to Carlsbad on Wednesday and have been having dinner with Craig, Kathie, Christopher and Gavin. Father's day was last Sunday and both Lorrie and Craig were generous with thoughtful gifts for the old man. I have been spending my time at the condo trying to get it in shape--a little like Sally would have done but not really. She always got a lot of new plants to make the place look terrific. I do not have her innate ability to decorate--plus I am red/green color blind--so I am trying my best but you know.....

This week would have been our 49th anniversary and Kathie is already planning a party to get me through it. Kathie and Craig, and Lorrie and John have just been the best!!!

Bless all of you for your support and the many donations to various charities--especially Heifer--in Sally's name. I'm sure she is pleased.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Sally's Autopsy

Well here goes--5 weeks out I finally have the final report from the autopsy. Just to remind you, about a month before Sally died, we had the results of the CT scan that did not show any tumor in the abdomen including the liver. The chemotherapy had just been stopped after six cycles and Sally was on the road to recovery, we thought. Well, we all know that didn't happen and she deteriorated rapidly with worsening liver function and other problems. Below are the main results of the autopsy.

LIVER: There was massive involvement of the liver with metastatic breast cancer. This was not in the form of masses but there were infiltrating bands and sheets of tumor that fooled CT scan into thinking it was not there. Surrounding the tumor was fibrosis. This is what caused the main blood vessel to the liver to be obstructed and resulted in the dilated blood vessels that ruptured and bled causing Sally's death. The pathologist estimated that 80 to 90 percent of the liver was replaced by tumor with very little remaining normal liver.

ADRENAL GLANDS: There was bilateral involvement of the adrenal glands with metastatic breast cancer. Again, the CT scan, which is usually good at imaging the adrenals, did not detect this. At the end of her life, Sally had a problem with her blood potassium concentration. The high potassium that she had may be the result of adrenal insufficiency caused by the tumor because of lack of adrenal steroids.

STOMACH: There was metastatic carcinoma growing in the wall of the stomach. This was another infiltration without masses so was invisible to the CT scan.

KIDNEYS: Both kidneys have multiple foci of metastatic carcinoma

UTERUS: The myometrium (the muscular wall of the uterus) had extensive involvement with metastatic breast cancer.

BRAIN: There was metastatic invasive lobular carcinoma of the breast throughout the brain including the meninges (brain covering), the cerebral cortex, the cerebellar cortex, the posterior lobe of the pituitary gland and the pineal gland. The posterior pituitary makes a hormone that controls body water. Sally had a very low serum sodium toward the end and this may be the result of water retention with dilution of the sodium as a result of the tumor in this part of the brain. Thank God that Sally had no symptoms or signs of brain dysfunction--but had she lived, she would have undoubtedly developed them.

So. . . I'm glad that we have this information. Sally's tumor was essentially undetectable to the imaging used in modern medicine. At the start it escaped detection by mammography, and was only detected because an equivocal ultrasound led to a biopsy. At the time of detection it had already spread to the lymph nodes and bones--and very likely even farther. The tumor was thought to be one that might give Sally many years of life and could be controlled. There were estrogen and progesterone receptors that "fed" the tumor. The therapy of choice recommended by MD Anderson and by Dr. Conlon was to block estrogen production and thereby "starve" the tumor. Sally did well for about a year on this estrogen blocker therapy, but after a year this terrible tumor escaped this therapy. Last fall Sally was very sick as those of you know who have been following this blog. A trial of a standard breast cancer chemotherapy, Taxotere, was begun and Sally responded. She started to feel better and we had a good Christmas and Easter. But clearly this horrible tumor was still growing in ways that eluded detection and very likely nothing much was going to stop it. The final thing that led to Sally's demise was the consequences of the liver involvement, but if it hadn't been that, it could have been something worse, like neurologic problems.

Everyone knows someone with breast cancer and for many early detection and therapy results in a cure or long term survival. Sally was unusual, not only in type of breast cancer (invasive lobular makes up only 10% of tumors) but also in the course of this tumor. The literature is really not helpful since this type of breast cancer is lumped in with the more common type of breast cancer that forms masses and therefore is more easily detected and imaged. I hope that someone, sometime will realize the uniqueness of the lobular carcinoma and study it separately from the rest of breast cancer.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Life goes on


We are now one month out. I thought I might still contribute to this blog--I even toyed with the idea of calling it Alan's Progress, but that would be too confusing and I couldn't figure out how to do it anyway. We had another wonderful memorial in Carlsbad last weekend-- a memorial on Memorial Day (almost). Many friends and family were there--probably about 70 people. Annie Watts presided as she did in Texas and did a great job--thank you Annie.

I have been going through drawers and cleaning out some of Sally's stuff. I have come across some things that grab me. I am going to attach a picture of one letter Sally gave to one of our grandsons as they went into middle school--it is two pages. It may not be readable but I will try. Maybe you can zoom in somehow. It describes how Sally lived her life and she was passing on her wisdom to our grandson.

In a subsequent blog, I will talk a little about Sally's autopsy--you may or may not want to see it, but it explains a lot and makes us grateful that she went quickly.